So hungry my spirit might fail!

“Answer me speedily, O Lord; My spirit fails! Do not hide Your face from me, Lest I be like those who go down into the pit. Cause me to hear Your lovingkindness in the morning, For in You do I trust; Cause me to know the way in which I should walk, For I lift up my soul to You. Psalm 143:7-8 NKJV

If we get nothing else out of studying the life of David – get his hunger for God!
“My spirit fails!” he yells out to God in this psalm. In US culture (which is where I am located), emotions are reserved – suppressed even. Similarly, English and German culture is stoic in emotions, but they at least give it place.  I have always said it is better to feel, feel deeply and feel it through. I have been called dramatic. Other cultures in this world do not understand this emotional oppression. You can read this and say, I have been so desperate for God that I thought my spirit might fail! That is beautiful. I know because I have been so desperately hungry as well.  I wish more people in my corner of the world could experience it.

Dear Heavenly Father – As always, please open eye to see and our ears to hear what you are saying! Lord – open our understanding that we may know you. Please do not let us miss out on what you want and need from us today. And please keep us and bless us and shine your face upon us and pour out grace over us and give us peace! Thank you! – In Jesus name we pray, Amen

Today’s reading is from the book of Psalms, chapters 131, 138-139 and 143-145 (embedded below the image below for your convenience).  

For those who have followed me for a while, you see Psalm 139 and know my heart wants to edify you with the spirit of revelation of who God made and called you to be! Oh Glory!  But there is something we all must be reminded of first, today. Or maybe just one of you. I don’t know – but God is being very firm about this so it is for someone.

The opening verse today – just another example of David empting himself out before God in complete honesty and without being full of himself he hungers desperately for more of God to fill him. Most of you, the readers, are not in the USA, or England, or Germany.  Most of you are from cultures where emotions are felt openly and shared so the blessings that come from crying with God, laughing with God, mourning with God and celebrating with God are familiar to you – but something some of us in the world must learn through a struggle of living under an emotional suppression (and cultural oppression). But, if we get hungry – so hungry – desperately, spirit failing hungry for more of God then we will burst through that oppression not just in private but also in public. We won’t care what people think.

I am a person who cries. I cry at everything spiritual. I feel the presence of God and my eyes run uncontrollably! I know if is my spirit desperate to be free to feel ALL the emotions that being in God’s presence has.
We had a guest speaker come last Sunday and had an open alter call – if we are praying, then I am there – and I hate when I show up to pray and people come NOT to pray but to mock God under the influence of evil, but that I suppose is a message or a casting out for another time when God says to.  So, anyway, I went up to the alter and prayed for the presence of the Lord and His revelation and for man to be put aside and and and – the things that you pray in preparation. 
The speaker came to pray for me and made some manly assumption because I cry. I cried so much I wasn’t able to answer him – I was full bore ugly crying before he even got to me. Others do not cry so freely – so God must be working – God must be changing – she must be hurting there must be….  Or maybe I just cry. 

When I public speak in large groups for work or in the past for schools – I am a good, engaged public speaker.  When I speak to small groups even about God I am a good speaker – when I preach or publicly pray – I cry. I cry. I cry.

Glory to God – my pastor is a foreigner.  He cries!  I am always SO VERY BLESSED HOW HE LEADS BY EXAMPLE!!! Cry sweet man of God – cry!  (when I cry, I have trouble speaking as I choke on my tears – he has so much more freedom as they roll off his face and his words continue to sound normal (passionate, but normal).

The point is that we are trying to go deeper with God and we are hindering ourselves by submitting to this emotions suppression and oppression. Principalities have regions and areas and we think of many as cultural. It is a spirit of oppression. Let us call it what it is. We have authority over it – it requires prayer and fasting.

It can be overcome on a personal level. But you may become the crier, like me and every emotion bad and good comes out in tears.  I have another friend who dances, every emotion comes out in dance.  And if none of this applies to you as you are already free to worship with all of your emotions (negative and positive) like David in his hunger, then please please please pray for those of us living in an emotionless world. We need to learn those emotions to have an intimate relationship with God.

Do you already have a relationship with a powerful God who cares about your every need because He loves you? Did you know my God can communicate with you and protect you – He has a plan for you to prosper if you just submit to His will and let His plan play out in your life!!! God wants a relationship with you and has already made a plan for your life. He loves you so much He sent His son to this world, to die as a sacrifice for your sins and rise from death with victory over sin and the ability to have a personal relationship with you.
9 If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. 10 For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you profess your faith and are saved.” Romans 10:9-10 NIV
Here is a prayer for you to pray:
Jesus, I believe you are the way, the truth, the life, and the only way to the Father. I believe you are the son of God, you came to Earth and lived. That you died on the cross as a sacrifice for my sins, and rose again so that I may be saved from my sins and be able to get to know you. I declare: Jesus, you are Lord!
Therefore, I confess that I am a sinner and I ask that you forgive me of my sins and come into my life. Help me to turn away from my sins and transform me into what you have lovingly created me to be. Help me through a real personal relationship grow and accept your will for my life – that I may live in your blessings. Please walk with me, and talk with me – I accept a relationship with you and with our Father God, through you. In the name of Jesus I pray ~ Amen

MEMORY WORK: Mark 16:17-18 – This month is a two for one special!!!
NKJV – “And these signs will follow those who believe: In My name they will cast out demons; they will speak with new tongues; they will take up serpents; and if they drink anything deadly, it will by no means hurt them; they will lay hands on the sick, and they will recover.”
NAS – “These signs will accompany those who have believed: in My name they will cast out demons, they will speak with new tongues; they will pick up serpents, and if they drink any deadly poison, it will not harm them; they will lay hands on the sick, and they will recover.”
ESV – “And these signs will accompany those who believe: in my name they will cast out demons; they will speak in new tongues; they will pick up serpents with their hands; and if they drink any deadly poison, it will not hurt them; they will lay their hands on the sick, and they will recover.”
NLT – “These miraculous signs will accompany those who believe: They will cast out demons in my name, and they will speak in new languages. They will be able to handle snakes with safety, and if they drink anything poisonous, it won’t hurt them. They will be able to place their hands on the sick, and they will be healed.”
NIV – “And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new tongues; they will pick up snakes with their hands; and when they drink deadly poison, it will not hurt them at all; they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get well.”

Thank you for reading.
May the God of peace keep you and bless you. May you stay focused on Christ and covered in grace.
Maranatha ~ Come Lord Jesus!

BIBLE READING: Psalms 131, 138-139 & 143-145 NKJV

Psalm 131

Simple Trust in the Lord
A Song of Ascents. Of David.

131 Lord, my heart is not [a]haughty,
Nor my eyes [b]lofty.
Neither do I [c]concern myself with great matters,
Nor with things too [d]profound for me.

Surely I have calmed and quieted my soul,
Like a weaned child with his mother;
Like a weaned child is my soul within me.

O Israel, hope in the Lord
From this time forth and forever.


  1. Psalm 131:1 Proud
  2. Psalm 131:1 Arrogant
  3. Psalm 131:1 Lit. walk in
  4. Psalm 131:1 difficult

Psalm 138-139

The Lord’s Goodness to the Faithful
A Psalm of David.

138 I will praise You with my whole heart;
Before the gods I will sing praises to You.
I will worship toward Your holy temple,
And praise Your name
For Your lovingkindness and Your truth;
For You have magnified Your word above all Your name.
In the day when I cried out, You answered me,
And made me bold with strength in my soul.

All the kings of the earth shall praise You, O Lord,
When they hear the words of Your mouth.
Yes, they shall sing of the ways of the Lord,
For great is the glory of the Lord.
Though the Lord is on high,
Yet He regards the lowly;
But the proud He knows from afar.

Though I walk in the midst of trouble, You will revive me;
You will stretch out Your hand
Against the wrath of my enemies,
And Your right hand will save me.
The Lord will [a]perfect that which concerns me;
Your mercy, O Lord, endures forever;
Do not forsake the works of Your hands.

God’s Perfect Knowledge of Man
For the Chief Musician. A Psalm of David.

139 O Lord, You have searched me and known me.
You know my sitting down and my rising up;
You understand my thought afar off.
You [b]comprehend my path and my lying down,
And are acquainted with all my ways.
For there is not a word on my tongue,
But behold, O Lord, You know it altogether.
You have [c]hedged me behind and before,
And laid Your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
It is high, I cannot attain it.

Where can I go from Your Spirit?
Or where can I flee from Your presence?
If I ascend into heaven, You are there;
If I make my bed in [d]hell, behold, You are there.
If I take the wings of the morning,
And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
10 Even there Your hand shall lead me,
And Your right hand shall hold me.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness shall [e]fall on me,”
Even the night shall be light about me;
12 Indeed, the darkness [f]shall not hide from You,
But the night shines as the day;
The darkness and the light are both alike to You.

13 For You formed my inward parts;
You [g]covered me in my mother’s womb.
14 I will praise You, for [h]I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.
15 My [i]frame was not hidden from You,
When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written,
The days fashioned for me,
When as yet there were none of them.

17 How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How great is the sum of them!
18 If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand;
When I awake, I am still with You.

19 Oh, that You would slay the wicked, O God!
Depart from me, therefore, you [j]bloodthirsty men.
20 For they speak against You wickedly;
[k]Your enemies take Your name in vain.
21 Do I not hate them, O Lord, who hate You?
And do I not loathe those who rise up against You?
22 I hate them with [l]perfect hatred;
I count them my enemies.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
Try me, and know my anxieties;
24 And see if there is any wicked way in me,
And lead me in the way everlasting.


  1. Psalm 138:8 complete
  2. Psalm 139:3 Lit. winnow
  3. Psalm 139:5 enclosed
  4. Psalm 139:8 Or Sheol
  5. Psalm 139:11 Vg., Symmachus cover
  6. Psalm 139:12 Lit. is not dark
  7. Psalm 139:13 wove
  8. Psalm 139:14 So with MT, Tg.; LXX, Syr., Vg. You are fearfully wonderful
  9. Psalm 139:15 Lit. bones were
  10. Psalm 139:19 Lit. men of bloodshed
  11. Psalm 139:20 LXX, Vg. They take Your cities in vain
  12. Psalm 139:22 complete

Psalm 143-145

An Earnest Appeal for Guidance and Deliverance
A Psalm of David.

143 Hear my prayer, O Lord,
Give ear to my supplications!
In Your faithfulness answer me,
And in Your righteousness.
Do not enter into judgment with Your servant,
For in Your sight no one living is righteous.

For the enemy has persecuted my soul;
He has crushed my life to the ground;
He has made me dwell in [a]darkness,
Like those who have long been dead.
Therefore my spirit is overwhelmed within me;
My heart within me is distressed.

I remember the days of old;
I meditate on all Your works;
[b]muse on the work of Your hands.
I spread out my hands to You;
My soul longs for You like a thirsty land. Selah

Answer me speedily, O Lord;
My spirit fails!
Do not hide Your face from me,
Lest I [c]be like those who [d]go down into the pit.
Cause me to hear Your lovingkindness in the morning,
For in You do I trust;
Cause me to know the way in which I should walk,
For I lift up my soul to You.

Deliver me, O Lord, from my enemies;
[e]In You I take shelter.
10 Teach me to do Your will,
For You are my God;
Your Spirit is good.
Lead me in the land of uprightness.

11 Revive me, O Lord, for Your name’s sake!
For Your righteousness’ sake bring my soul out of trouble.
12 In Your mercy cut[f] off my enemies,
And destroy all those who afflict my soul;
For I am Your servant.

A Song to the Lord Who Preserves and Prospers His People
A Psalm of David.

144 Blessed be the Lord my Rock,
Who trains my hands for war,
And my fingers for battle—
My lovingkindness and my fortress,
My high tower and my deliverer,
My shield and the One in whom I take refuge,
Who subdues [g]my people under me.

Lord, what is man, that You take knowledge of him?
Or the son of man, that You are mindful of him?
Man is like a breath;
His days are like a passing shadow.

Bow down Your heavens, O Lord, and come down;
Touch the mountains, and they shall smoke.
Flash forth lightning and scatter them;
Shoot out Your arrows and destroy them.
Stretch out Your hand from above;
Rescue me and deliver me out of great waters,
From the hand of foreigners,
Whose mouth speaks [h]lying words,
And whose right hand is a right hand of falsehood.

I will sing a new song to You, O God;
On a harp of ten strings I will sing praises to You,
10 The One who gives [i]salvation to kings,
Who delivers David His servant
From the deadly sword.

11 Rescue me and deliver me from the hand of foreigners,
Whose mouth speaks lying words,
And whose right hand is a right hand of falsehood—
12 That our sons may be as plants grown up in their youth;
That our daughters may be as [j]pillars,
Sculptured in palace style;
13 That our barns may be full,
Supplying all kinds of produce;
That our sheep may bring forth thousands
And ten thousands in our fields;
14 That our oxen may be well laden;
That there be no [k]breaking in or going out;
That there be no outcry in our streets.
15 Happy are the people who are in such a state;
Happy are the people whose God is the Lord!

A Song of God’s Majesty and Love
A Praise of David.

145 I will [l]extol You, my God, O King;
And I will bless Your name forever and ever.
Every day I will bless You,
And I will praise Your name forever and ever.
Great is the Lord, and greatly to be praised;
And His greatness is [m]unsearchable.

One generation shall praise Your works to another,
And shall declare Your mighty acts.
5 [n]I will meditate on the glorious splendor of Your majesty,
And [o]on Your wondrous works.
Men shall speak of the might of Your awesome acts,
And I will declare Your greatness.
They shall [p]utter the memory of Your great goodness,
And shall sing of Your righteousness.

The Lord is gracious and full of compassion,
Slow to anger and great in mercy.
The Lord is good to all,
And His tender mercies are over all His works.

10 All Your works shall praise You, O Lord,
And Your saints shall bless You.
11 They shall speak of the glory of Your kingdom,
And talk of Your power,
12 To make known to the sons of men His mighty acts,
And the glorious majesty of His kingdom.
13 Your kingdom is an everlasting kingdom,
And Your dominion endures throughout all [q]generations.

14 The Lord upholds all who fall,
And raises up all who are bowed down.
15 The eyes of all look expectantly to You,
And You give them their food in due season.
16 You open Your hand
And satisfy the desire of every living thing.

17 The Lord is righteous in all His ways,
Gracious in all His works.
18 The Lord is near to all who call upon Him,
To all who call upon Him in truth.
19 He will fulfill the desire of those who fear Him;
He also will hear their cry and save them.
20 The Lord preserves all who love Him,
But all the wicked He will destroy.
21 My mouth shall speak the praise of the Lord,
And all flesh shall bless His holy name
Forever and ever.


  1. Psalm 143:3 dark places
  2. Psalm 143:5 ponder
  3. Psalm 143:7 become
  4. Psalm 143:7 Die
  5. Psalm 143:9 LXX, Vg. To You I flee
  6. Psalm 143:12 put an end to
  7. Psalm 144:2 So with MT, LXX, Vg.; Syr., Tg. the peoples (cf. 18:47)
  8. Psalm 144:8 empty or worthless
  9. Psalm 144:10 deliverance
  10. Psalm 144:12 corner pillars
  11. Psalm 144:14 Lit. breach
  12. Psalm 145:1 praise
  13. Psalm 145:3 Beyond our understanding
  14. Psalm 145:5 So with MT, Tg.; DSS, LXX, Syr., Vg. They
  15. Psalm 145:5 Lit. on the words of Your wondrous works
  16. Psalm 145:7 eagerly utter, lit. bubble forth
  17. Psalm 145:13 So with MT, Tg.; DSS, LXX, Syr., Vg. add The Lord is faithful in all His words, And holy in all His works

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