Standing in Light – 11-21-22

“This is the message which we have heard from Him and declare to you, that God is light and in Him is no darkness at all.” 1 John 1:5 NKJV


Do you already have a relationship with a powerful God who cares about your every need because He loves you? Did you know my God can communicate with you and protect you – He has a plan for you to prosper if you just submit to His will and let His plan play out in your life!!! God wants a relationship with you and has already made a plan for your life. He loves you so much He sent His son to this world, to die as a sacrifice for your sins and rise from death with victory over sin and the ability to have a personal relationship with you.

Do you want to know truth? Be able to discern lies? Know how to figure it all out in these confusing times and have peace? The Bible says Jesus is the truth. I have experienced it and it has changed my life. I was once a hot mess of sin, promiscuity, drug and alcohol use and so much more. But I was lost and when I could not find my way, or find a truth, I numbed it with bad choses. When I found Jesus, and truth – I found peace and deliverance from those things.

If you want a relationship with God without truth you will get the counterfeit, hypocritical Christianity that has kept some of you away for too long. You need truth and relationship. You need to be honest with yourself and God (including honest repentance) and God will reveal truth to you. It becomes the two way, interaction that your relationship with God is built on. This is why Jesus is called the truth, because he is our only way to the Father. 

“If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you profess your faith and are saved.” Romans 10:9-10 NIV
Here is a prayer for you to pray:
Jesus, I believe you are the way, the truth, the life, and the only way to the Father. I believe you are the son of God, you came to Earth and lived. That you died on the cross as a sacrifice for my sins, and rose again so that I may be saved from my sins and be able to get to know you. I declare: Jesus, you are Lord!
Therefore, I confess that I am a sinner and I ask that you forgive me of my sins and come into my life. Help me to turn away from my sins and transform me into what you have lovingly created me to be. Help me through a real personal relationship grow and accept your will for my life – that I may live in your blessings. Please walk with me, and talk with me – I accept a relationship with you and with our Father God, through you. In the name of Jesus I pray ~ Amen


Dear Heavenly Father – Please give us the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of who you are, who Jesus is, and who the Holy Spirit is. Open the eyes of our understanding, please, so we may know the hope of our calling and the vast sovereignty and power of the grace of the cross. Please do not let us miss out on what you want and need from us today. Lord, I pray that your word prepares us and not scares us! We forbid the works and influences of fear over your word and our sound mind. And please keep us and bless us and shine your face upon us and pour out grace over us and give us peace! And we pray for the peace of Jerusalem! Thank you! – In Jesus name we pray, Amen

Today’s reading is the First Book of John, chapter 1 (embedded below for your convenience in the NKJV).

What Was Heard, Seen, and Touched

That which was from the beginning, which we have heard, which we have seen with our eyes, which we have looked upon, and our hands have handled, concerning the Word of life— the life was manifested, and we have seen, and bear witness, and declare to you that eternal life which was with the Father and was manifested to us— that which we have seen and heard we declare to you, that you also may have fellowship with us; and truly our fellowship is with the Father and with His Son Jesus Christ. And these things we write to you that [a]your joy may be full.

Fellowship with Him and One Another

This is the message which we have heard from Him and declare to you, that God is light and in Him is no darkness at all. If we say that we have fellowship with Him, and walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. But if we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses us from all sin.

If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 10 If we say that we have not sinned, we make Him a liar, and His word is not in us.


Colossians 4:2 – 

“Continue earnestly in prayer, being vigilant in it with thanksgiving”


Has God ever told you something – maybe you heard it, had a dream, or had a feeling – and you obeyed and had a few hints that it was the right thing, but still wondered if you were doing His will?  I followed a prompting when laying out the reading plan for this year and all year we have seen hints that what we were reading were the right things for the state of our world. Today, I have a solid confirmation and I know that I know that THIS is the exact correct thing for us to read at this time!
Literally four days ago, I loved all the writings of John and loved focusing on his love for Christ. I knew studying this was going to be grace (which I always define as a powerful transformative action). But in the last four days, I have received deep revelation of love. I went to a 3 day conference retreat and all I wanted to do was spend time readying these letters from John and basking in the LOVE of God. To come home and not only do that – but spend the time I study for this blog doing that as well IS GOD’S PERFECT TIMING!! My expectation is that God is going to show up in more of the spirit of revelation so that all of you and myself will feel a fresh tidal wave of God’s love!
Please pray for deeper understanding of God while thinking on these letters written by John.

The letters called first, second and third John – were written by the same John that wrote the Gospel of John (which we read at the beginning of this quarter) as well as the book of the Revelation of Christ – which we will get to read soon. (Side note – John says there is an extra blessing for those who read through the whole book of revelation. I believe him, because the book is full of grace and tender mercy. So please make sure you join us for it and not miss out on that extra blessing!)
John is one of the 12 disciples. He was the one the other disciples teased and called “The Lord’s Beloved”. Not only did John love Jesus – Jesus loved John. John’s love quickly proved to be fearless the night Jesus was betrayed and John followed closing right into the first room where Jesus was being questioned, whole the Bible shows Peter followed afar off and denied Christ and being one of the disciples multiple times. John then continued with Jesus through the passion and was the ONLY disciple at the foot of the cross, next to Jesus’s mother. John then cared for Jesus’s mother after Jesus’s death. We have spoken about how it was the real and strong love that compelled John to follow and behave in a way that risked his own life in a time before the Holy Spirit came and emboldened them.
With the internet – we all have a few preachers and Bible Study leaders we all like to follow; like many of you, have my writings on your daily reading list. (I love and appreciate your support.) As much as we love our favorite people (we do not idolize or worship them) we find their message always has the similar themes. My writing for example seems to always come back to repentance, humility, and grace. There is a reason for this. We are all part of the body and this is my assignment and someone else have the love assignment and someone else has the faith assignment and someone else has the…. We all have our own jobs and together we make a whole. John’s assignment is love. And you will quickly see how much John repeats himself and that is ok. A good message is worth repeating and listening to and re-reading over and over again!  Just like we read and reread our Bibles. Just like we watch the videos of our favorite preachers over and over.

The first four verses of today’s reading are very reminiscent of what we read in John 20:19-23 and verses five through ten in today’s reading may remind you of John 8:12-29.

So let’s dig in:

1 That which was from the beginning, which we have heard, which we have seen with our eyes, which we have looked upon, and our hands have handled, concerning the Word of life—“

What was from the beginning? In the beginning, in Genesis chapter one verse one was “In the beginning, God”. God was in the beginning. Specifically The Creator – The Word.
Then we look at John, chapter 1 and we see Jesus IS the Word.
And now back to First John where John is beginning his letter by saying this is a testimony of Jesus! Because Jesus is the Word and these are the things we have seen and touched and are a witness to.
It is very hard to argue with a person who has experienced something. Over the last few days, I have had an overwhelming experience with God the Father, Son and Holy Spirit – I am still processing it all. None the less I know certain truths that no one can argue with me about – having one through it. I can tell you my experience and The Word and how they line up. Therefore Truth. Light. Life.

the life was manifested, and we have seen, and bear witness, and declare to you that eternal life which was with the Father and was manifested to us—“

Jesus was manifested. And John is telling his readers how He was a witness.
Jesus manifested Himself in my life. I can bear witness. Has Jesus manifested Himself in your life and do you give Him room daily to be able to manifest Himself in your life?
This past weekend – I can also testify of the manifestations of the Holy Spirit and the Loving Father!! We first must welcome them to be present.

“3 that which we have seen and heard we declare to you, that you also may have fellowship with us; and truly our fellowship is with the Father and with His Son Jesus Christ.”

We declare. Declaration is a powerful tool. It is like aiming the light into the darkness. But before we think too much on that – let’s talk about fellowship. Water seeks its own level. Darkness fellowships with darkness and light fellowships with light.  If all your friends are screwed up messes, take a look at yourself. If your spouse has all sorts of issues, remember you married them. If you are surrounded by strong warriors in God’s camp, I’ll bet you are a strong warrior in God’s camp.

And these things we write to you that your joy may be full.”

John is about to impart love, truth, freedom, deliverance and all that will fill you with joy – if you are humble before God and receive it. So many times when I was a moody teen, I read these letters from John and saw that they were supposed to bring joy to my sad emotional existence and when it didn’t, and I did not understand I was frustrated at God and religion. If I had learned relationship, I would have known to stop and ask Jesus and let The Light reveal the truth.

Here is the hard truth about my corrupted understanding – I thought The Light was a metaphor for Jesus. I failed to understand that Jesus is Light, and there is no symbolism. And it was great to think Jesus and bright cherry moments would bring joy (which we recently learned is the strength of our salvation). But it is so much more clean and crisp than that – it is truth. 

This is the message which we have heard from Him and declare to you, that God is light and in Him is no darkness at all.”

The devil himself assigned a demon to me to tell me my whole life that I was not lovable. As long as that voice had legal grounds to stay and was not asked to leave, there was always a place of darkness where light could not shine. I was ashamed and never told anyone – besides, it seemed pretty obvious that no one loved me. I was ALMOST filled with light – I just needed something to aim the light at this horrible lie and declare light. If I shine light into a dark room everything becomes seeable, except the shadows. So if we shine light into the shadows that becomes light too.

I think many times Christians yell the name of Jesus or literally “The Name of Jesus” into these dark shadows and wonder why the light does not expose them. The name of Jesus is not a magic word. The name of Jesus is not going to change the direction of the light and expose the shadows. So we come into three words full of grace that can transform the direction of the light: Declare, Expose and Confess.

If we say that we have fellowship with Him, and walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth.”

First – of course we must admit the truth. I heard a preacher say: “Own your shit”. And let’s get real – it is smelling discard, waste material – let us stop hiding it. We all have a need for a toilet – we all poop and it all stinks. No condemnation here. Let’s remember the love of John that reflects the love of Jesus and get real for a moment. We all have baggage. Can we bring this all it into the light?

But if we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses us from all sin.”

So two days ago at a conference I was at, they said to get into groups of three and spill your guts out. OK there was a bit more to it – but we were challenged to get super open and honest. Bring things to the “light”. I was there with someone I was always pretty transparent with and honest. It was super easy. Then on the way home (riding together) I felt such guilt for holding back – and told her more and she did too. Then in the morning again I felt like I held back and told her more – but she felt like I had said that already.

Anyway – she and I instantly began to have a better friendship – we were literally fellowshipping without reserve, nothing held back, no pride and no condemnation. And that was that. An open and honest friendship instantly bloomed.

Another person, instead of spilling their beans, deflected that and distracted with taking on responsibility for abuse she received. Sounded super vulnerable and like she was doing the assignment – but nothing she shared was hers.

If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us.”

 We all have sinned. Bring that sin into the light and one of three things are going to happen: 1. it’s repented of. 2. it’s cast out. 3. the person chooses to keep it and the darkness wins.

If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”

Four days ago – I would have danced around about what confession means. I have humbly and privately confessed my sins to God over and over again. Some sins are a sin struggle and some I can overcome. If I grab ahold of that sin and drag it into the light – or using the description I used above: declaring, exposing and confessing aims the light into the dark shadows.  Then all of it is known – and whoever knows can then help support you.

You see there is no room for pride – I saw pastor and spiritual leaders confess big sin problems and struggle at this conference – no one is outside of the reach of the enemy, because of our own sin cycles.   The secret, according to John is to not just confess to God in private but bring it into the light.
I had a friend who used to speak of living openly so that no one can use your past against you. I have always tried to be more open, because of this. You see he learned this lesson because of a secret. (This story does not age well in our culture, so I am leaving out details. In our culture now, he’d be praised for his sins. I will let him save face and leave out details.) He had a secret sin; one that many people thought of as a terrible and grotesque sin. He humbled himself before God and told no one else. He confessed and turned away from it. Many years later he ran for political office. This secret showed up and destroyed his life, politically, as well as his marriage. He was so sad. He thought he had dealt with it. If he had brought it to the light – and many people would bear witness and say, we know – but we also saw him overcome his struggles and he was accountable and proven to be free, then he has an open and honest in the light life. We aren’t perfect – but we should be honest.  He could have gotten out ahead of it and showed the kind of character it takes to overcome. Instead he left the church and gave into the sin – he can’t keep a job and drinks too much.

But even knowing my friend’s story I would have wrote this and said, use discretion when bringing things to light and in front of who. BUT I no longer believe that. Because in every case I can think of, no matter how bad the sin is – bringing it into the light makes it lose all its power and authority and makes it so much easier to repent from. It takes a deeper since of humility. A humility which was immediately challenged in me.

10 If we say that we have not sinned, we make Him a liar, and His word is not in us.”

Humility and breaking pride is huge for me – this is because I know firsthand the troubles of keeping myself humble. You see, like EVERYONE ELSE I have sinned. Now I am usually very open and honest about my life and use my life lessons as examples. And the risk is people who have sinned, losing respect for me, because I have sinned. Which is silly. If Jesus does not condemn me, what can man do to me? I will stand, therefore in the light.  But I did keep a few things to myself. Like the fact that I have a stubborn defiance streak in me. My grandfather had it, my dad has it, and now look at me. No one (except maybe my dad) is as stubbornly obstinate as me. I have tried to use this for good, digging my heels in for good causes and not for bad causes. Because of trying to control it – it often just showed up as pride. I then worked on dealing with the symptom of pride. I learned self-control and humility and became good at it. Self-control was no longer a fruit of the spirit but an urgently forced behavior to control pride and defiance.
This is where you all say – I cannot learn the Bible from someone who had a defiance struggle. Everything she said could have been tainted by her struggle. This is an interesting argument because a few days ago – I might have agreed (because of my ow pride). But then I think of God making the donkey speak – God doesn’t look for perfect men and women to do his work, he’ll use a jackass if he has to – let’s just hope we aren’t the ass. Let’s do better. Let’s bring this all into the light and may NO MAN accuse or condemn. Jesus said, He who is without sin cast the first stone.
At the conference, I saw pastors and church leader rush the stage to get healed and delivered. GLORY TO GOD!!! Many of them demonized and leading churches yesterday and today they are free in Christ still leading churches, but so much better – this DOESN’T MEAN what they said before was false. Many like me, have extensive head knowledge and are still able to preach a clean and effective sermon. Many can still teach and flow in the other various gifts including prophecy, healings, and even deliverance. They are delivered by God not man! Hallelujah! God uses everyone who is willing to be used. Glory to God!! AND just because God uses you, does not mean you are right with God or even more holy or better than others (you could be a literal donkey).
I too, went forward and prayed: Jesus, I just want to go deeper and I want more of you AND I want to live to glorify you! And I waited my turn. A prayer team took me on my turn, two men and a woman. My friend was already prayed for so she came with me. I emptied myself of everything and submitted myself to whatever God had for me. I saw people having demons cast out – what that going to happen to me? Sure enough – something arose in me and it was evil and it felt like it was dwelling in the area of my heart – not that it makes any sense to me. It declared it was “No”. And it was going to stay even though it had no authority or legal grounds to stay. It said No more times then I even let onto. It was surreal and weird. It was this very same defiance my grandfather had. They cast it out. It left. They cast out everything else with it and made sure there were no more and sealed me in the Holy Spirit and I thought – that was weird. Then another team (man and woman) prayed for me and prayed against doubt coming in and asked God what next. Then he said: ‘this is super weird, but close your eyes and take my arm and trust me as I lead you down the isle of the church.’ I said, ok. It was harder than I thought it would be. Then he said the Holy Spirit says trust me like that. Earlier my gift of knowledge was darkened and I kept telling my friend I felt blind – then walking with my eyes physically closed and my spiritual eyes also closed was so hard. And I realized, the Holy Spirit was blinding me before, because he was already telling me this and it is a confirmation. I will have to let him lead me blindly.

Today I learn from my friend that one of the ladies on that prayer team (which prayed for me) is very close with a lady at my church and had told her ALL about the conference. And my friend said, I hope they taught her discretion – meaning, she hopes the lady did not tell anyone that they cast demon(s) out of me. My pride was tested – Honestly, if you judge me for my sins when you have sins – or my demons, and in my case they probably came down to me from my grandfather, when you may also have demons from your family may Jesus Himself help you and have mercy on you. So I said – if they tell my testimony before I can – I hope God gets as much glory as I am going to give Him for this great thing He has done! And I knew I had to share with all of you!! Because if it can happen to me, it can happen to you!
And now I am probably the only teacher you follow that you know is free from demons! Praise the LORD!! (Unless you are following other teachers who have been recently freed from demons!) Hallelujah!
I had a thing – it is brought to light. LOOK WHAT THE LORD HAS DONE! And like everything else in my life I am committed to bringing it into the light. Because it glorifies the Father!
So go ahead enemy let it leak – but make sure you give God all the glory I do. And tell the people I am not ashamed – I overcame the bondage of the enemy and have been set free by the chain breaker, himself and now my whole life can glorify the Father!
Jesus is the light and it is IN the LIGHT that mercy and grace are in fullness and we can have joy. And sometimes what in me, that must come to light, is connected to other people and they may need to humble themselves and repent and bring it to the light as well – if not it will be hard for them. It is so hard without mercy and grace. But I must obey the scriptures.  

And of course, as we saw in verse 8 – “we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us.” We can deceive ourselves – we must be strong, courageous and bold and be honest with ourselves. Wishing we did not confess it, wishing we did not do it, back peddling and trying to hide the darkness in the shadows is the wrong answer – it blocks healing, freedom and blessings.  There was SO much more. That happened at the conference, in the chain breaking, in the soul healing and in my life during these last 3 days I cannot even begin to tell it all. So I will share as it comes up. And know, that if Jesus can do it for me, He can and is willing to do it for you – you must just bring it all into the light – no secret formula and no secret words. Just grab yourself a couple believers like your spouse and a friend and tell them and tell God – repent and be healed and made whole.


I also wanted to remind and inform all of you, that instead of writing a book on fasting (since it is the topic I get asked the most about) I have created a Facebook group that is designed to be interactive and give you all the Bible verses on fasting, all the types of fast, and how to fast. In the group are specialist to help us along the way, like the creator of The Fasting Protocol (fasting for health and weight loss; which is part of fasting and important to know about – He can also speak to fasting in a healthy manner). The group is new and other experts are invited, I am hopeful they will join. So let’s join the group and see what we will learn about prayer and fasting. Here is the link:

Thank you for reading in 2022 – a Year of Wisdom and Salvation
May the God of peace keep you and bless you. May you stay focused on Christ and covered in grace. Walk in wisdom.
Maranatha ~ Come Lord Jesus!


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